Last night, I started playing around with Poser 5. It's a lot tougher to get that program going than I had hoped it would be. I figure I'm going to have to purchase a book to learn how to use it, but aside from that the program sure seems like it's going to be a lot of fun. I have intentions on using it to create artist works I've always wanted to do, but I always seemed to suffer from the fact that I just never learned how to draw. Okay, that I never learned how to draw a straight line.

Finally have a few days off. Granted, I still have to do a lot of work for all of my classes over the weekend. But at least I have some time to wind down a bit and work on the stuff that needs working on.

My car feels like it is getting close to its last days, so I can only hope that holds out for me. Really not looking forward to trying to make it through this place without my car.

I submitted my associateship/assistantship application today, and I'm suspecting that it's going to be a lot like last year. In a month or so, I'll get a form letter indicating that they just didn't have enough assistantships to give out, and I'm not getting one. I'm about to lose my assistantship with the Communications Department because they don't seem to be all that excited about supporting the Forensics Program (the reason I came here to this university in the first place), so I'm going to be left to my own devices next year. And that's getting me to seriously reconsider whether or not I want to stay here. If WMU doesn't feel that I'm worthy enough to fund, why am I wasting my time here? I'm certainly not part of any great social life here; I don't even have a single friend here. I had tons of friends back in San Francisco; I don't even have a close association with anyone here. And as of yesterday, I'm just getting older.

I'm starting to feel I'm probably going to end up dying here, and it's going to be alone.

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