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This is the official page of author Duane Gundrum. It is also the portal for the comic strip The Adventures of Stickman and the Unemployed Legospaceman.

Thursday, December 31, 2009

People with too much knowledge to ever read a book and why we keep on rewarding mediocrity

One of my pet peeves in talking to other people about books and knowledge is when I find myself dealing with someone who claims a little (or a lot of) knowledge about a subject in which they really know nothing. It usually starts when I'm talking about a particular book, and the person I'm talking to will discount pretty much everything I say and then interject with "common knowledge" about a subject of which he or she has no knowledge nor is the subject all that common. Take educations as a subject. I was having a conversation with someone about teaching in high schools and community colleges. The person I was talking to went on a rant about how he knew so much about the subject because he had an aunt that was a teacher, and boy, could he tell me stories. I remembered conversations I had with other person who used their knowledge of having been in high school once to pass on their "brilliant" insights about teaching at high schools. This reminded me of a book, Teachers Have It Easy: The Big Sacrificies and Small Salaries of America's Teachers by Daniel Moultrop, Ninive Clements Calegari and Dave Eggars. It's one of those books with brilliant insights and exhaustive research, but every time I brought it up in conversation, I was rebuked by someone who had "better" information, and would never, ever, in a million years, read that book because they already knew everything they needed to know about the subject.

I used to run into this type of attitude while in graduate school. A student would respond to a conversation about a book with a diatribe on the subject, but not once would actual evidence ever be brought up. I even had one student talk about a movie she saw on the weekend as "evidence" once. Such conversations become very tiring, very fast, and people often wonder why I've come this close to giving up on the institutions of education these days.

An interesting area of study is that of ethnic and racial studies because the area is filled with such misinformation based on stereotypes and beliefs fueled by race politics. I was in a course that was studying poverty once when the students each went off on a rant about their knowledge of poverty based on personal experiences ("I was an undergraduate who once could not afford to buy a CD for months because of how little money I was making from financial aid" as the type of example). I'm not a real fan of comparative studies as a process of explanation, but having been through poverty, such circumstances really irritated me when it was politically incorrect to stand up and say: "You don't know anything about poverty because you've NEVER BEEN POOR!"

But when it comes to studying race, it's a very interesting dilemma because there are so many people in higher levels of education who rely on their race as their only foundation for their level of scholarship. I remember an African-American woman in one of my classes who received no small amount of scholarships and endowments, mainly because she signed her name to forms stating that she was African-American. I think I was one of the only other graduate students to read what she was writing (something she made a habit of keeping from other students), and I was astounded at how little research she conducted nor how her "conclusions" consisted of making some of the weakest arguments I'd ever experienced. Had I ever submitted anything like I read from the several awarded papers she had written, I would have received a red comment on the paper from a professor stating, "yeah, but who cares?" But the interesting thing is that there was no way in the world anyone would ever DARE say that out loud back then, because not only was it important to award everything you could to someone who was doing no work whatsoever in her educational process, it would have been career suicide to have even hinted that one suspected the work of being as weak as it really was. This person went onto achieve a PhD in her field, and in my many conversations with her over the years, I came to realize this whole pursuit was really a walk in the park for her, because no one ever challenged her, nor did anyone ever put her through any length of criticism for producing nothing but shoddy work. That, in a nutshell, is one of the serious problems with our educational system these days.

Which brings me back to lazy research and those who refuse to engage themselves in exploring deeper analysis. There's an interesting book that few people have read but many have seen called The Asian Mystique: Dragon Ladies, Geisha Girls & Our Fantasies of the Exotic Orient by Sheridon Prasso. In this book, the author explores western stereotypes that we keep reinforcing over and over again. Having been someone who has been swept up in the same stereotypes myself (an infatuation with Lucy Liu when she first appeared), it helped to understand why such things affect the psyche. When talking the book over with others, most people just don't get it, and when I've tried to explain it to people, I discover it's not their ability to understand it that's the problem but it's their perspective about Asia, Asian people and other such matters that make it almost impossible to explain. Until you read it yourself, you really don't understand, but getting someone to read it is like pulling teeth with pliars. It just doesn't happen.

Anyway, I could go on, but I'll leave it at that. Unfortunately, getting people to read is never an easy process, and I'm almost to the point where I'm giving up on trying. If people want to be considered experts on subjects they know nothing about, let them. I'll just smile knowingly and laugh behind their backs instead.

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Thursday, January 08, 2009

As the World Turns

Current health
I'm okay. My system seems to have been adjusting to all the changes I've put it through. I can read normally again, and I don't feel like I'm about to have a stroke every time I go to sleep at night (part of that was probably stress and self-induced symptoms, I assume). Now, I feel good. Hopefully, I'm out of the troubled waters for now.

The job
It's actually better than when I started. There is massive turn-over here, which is stressful in its own way, but for the most part, things are generally stable. The students like me ("love me", according to reports from the parents), and the parents are constantly asking why I'm not teaching more of the classes because they'd rather have the "star" of the Academy teaching their students than random Korean teachers. That feels pretty good to hear, but at the same time I'm not sure I'd want the workload that would entail if they did add all those kids to my schedule.

I generally like the people I work with. There was one woman working here was kind of annoying, with one of those abrupt attitudes that really didn't seem appropraite most of the time. The kids used to complain to me about her (she was teaching science), and I knew she wasn't getting along well with her subject matter. They let her go yesterday, so she's no longer with us. Supposedly, someone else will replace her soon. That seems to happen a lot. Sometimes, it's justified. Other times, well, let's just say that I'm not qualified to make such judgments. But the other teachers and my supervisor are pretty cool. I like most of them, and even though we don't have long, drawn out conversations, I think we get along just great. We lost one teacher I really liked; she taught mainly the Toefl classes (English second language program). I got the impression she wasn't happy here, so I don't know if she left on her own or if it was a decision of management. Either way, she left a few days ago and asked if she could call me on my cell phone, so I gave her my number. I liked her. I hope she does well wherever she ends up going. She was somewhat in tears most of the other day, so it's sad to see someone cool have to go.

My computer
This situation was another one of those "can only happen to Duane" nightmares. It finally arrived a few weeks ago, but Customs had it and wouldn't release it. They wanted me to pay for it because it had insurance on it. A Korean teacher talked to them on the phone, and finally I had to fax (then scan and email) copies of my passport and other documents before they would finally release it.

So, I got it home and turned it on. Started up, and then gave me "Disk failure. Put in system disk." Nothing worked. Basically, it took me awhile to discover that the computer could not see my hard drive. So I rebuilt my computer. Twice. Finally, after a week, it could see the hard drive. It started up. But now it couldn't see my keyboard. You see, I installed this Zboard keyboard some months ago, and without it, my computer refused to recognize any other keyboard. No matter what I did, I couldn't fix it. So I bought a new XP disk and reinstalled Windows XP Home edition (over XP media edition, cause no Korean place had media edition). It came up and worked. But then I had no drivers. Duane wasn't smart enough to copy his drivers, so now I had no Internet connection and it had been so long, I couldn't remember how to get this configured. Finally, I realized that the ethernet card it was displaying wasn't actually an ethernet card but a protocol. So I used my laptop and found the drivers that fix the ethernet card. Then I had Internet access. Then, slowly I was able to reconnect everything else that needs to be working in my computer (cause now I could download them directly onto the computer). My life was pretty much saved by having a laptop and a flash drive. I now have to find tons of software that I no longer have because the new XP doesn't recognize any old files. I don't even have a word processor. Hopefully, Kat will find that software and send it to me. Or I'll end up having to pay a ton of money to buy it again, and as everyone is scared to death of allowing software downloads from Pirate Korea, I probably can't order anything directly from the US online. But I'm back up and running, so that's good. Plus, my computer starts up a lot faster when it doesn't have a ton of other software that refuses to stop loading first.

My writing
Not much to say. No success here. I received a copy of the book 2009 Novel & Short Story Writer's Market which I ordered from a British book company I buy a lot of books from these days. I've been pretty happy with them so far.

My degree
University of the Pacific still hasn't updated my transcripts to reflect I have a master's degree. But then I understand I'm not the only one who hasn't received an update from UOP, so I'm not panicking just yet. Kat is going in tomorrow to see what the status was on the printing of my thesis, which according to my understanding should not be a problem towards awarding my degree. But we'll see....

That's about it. Not much else going on. No social life whatsoever. Not even trying. But that's okay. I gave up on women a long time ago because they're all icky and have cooties. Calvin, Hobbes and I aren't letting any grrls in our club treehouse.

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Tuesday, December 23, 2008

The day before Christmas and you wouldn't know it being here

The snow
I walked to E-mart yesterday, and it was really the first time I've had time to go anywhere other than work lately. It was then that I realized there was snow and ice on the streets. It wasn't like full-blown snow, but it was obviously white and it was all over the place. I was told by any number of Koreans that it didn't snow in Seoul. I think I have just experienced another one of those inexplicable lies that people say for no reason whatsoever. I sometimes feel like Korea is an entire country made up of patholical liars, because honestly, what would have been lost to have said "Yes, Duane, every now and then snow does touch the ground of Seoul." Is this some kind of pride thing, which is the reason behind most of Korea's lies? Are they afraid I won't appreciate Seoul more if it ever snows here? Is this the first time EVER that snow has appeared here? I seriously doubt that last one. Still, people told me it never snows here. I'm not sure why, but that's what a lot of people have said.

iTunes
Sometimes, this service really pisses me off. It's expensive to buy things from there, yet sometimes it's your only way of getting access to the things you want. I downloaded two tv shows yesterday (Sarah Connor Chronicles) and it cost me $4 total. Not much, but that sort of money adds up. What really bugs me about this is that this is a one-time download. It's ONLY on my current computer, meaning that if I ever wanted to see those tv shows again and had my main computer, I'd have to buy them again. This was a problem for me when I came here and had my laptop. I had a bunch of music from iTunes on my old computer, but I had to buy the same music again, because they charge per download, not per account. I use Steam, which is a game resource from the company that makes the very popular game Half Life. I ordered a game from there the other day called Titan Quest. Turns out, it doesn't run so well on my laptop, but when I get my main computer hooked up again, I can download it for free because I bought it on my account, not just for one computer. That's where Apple pisses me off. They're so pretentious about how great they are, but it's all about the money, and customers come second to them.

Health
I'm continuing to feel better. I can pretty much see normal now. I've been having serious problems sleeping, and I've been taking a sleeping pill (over the counter type) to compensate. I ran out the other night (I don't take it every day, but every other day or so), so I went to a Korean Yak (pharmacy), the one where I first bought it, and it was a Sunday. They said they were out of all types of sleep medication. At least I think that's what they said. They pointed and shrugged shoulders a lot, so I can only guess that was what they were saying. Fortunately, yesterday, I found a new Yak close to me, and I bought two packages of the same product. I slept really well last night, although I had a pretty hard time getting on with my day as that stuff generally knocks you completely out.

Work
We're starting up a new group of students here, and I'm not really sure what my teaching schedule is, although it does appear to be kind of sparse. I find myself highly under-utilized here, and I don't really mnd it, but it does seem to be a normal thing here. I believe I'll be teaching one or two classes a day (who knows?), but the content of the classes is somewhat unknown to me, and again, I have a strong feeling I'm going to find out the exact content about an hour before I teach my first class. I'm teaching writing, but that could mean anything here. I think I'm supposed to teach based on the previous teacher's lesson that day, which means I'm not going to find out what she's teaching until she finally actually comes out and reveals it to me, something that rarely happens, even if you ask directly. Instead, they'll tell you it doesn't snow here.

But the job isn't bad, and it's kind of nice to be taking a break from the rest of where my life was going some months ago. I'm glad school is over, even though I have no idea if I graduated because here it is December 24th, and University of the Pacific has yet to post that I've graduated. I keep checking on my unofficial transcripts, and they keep listing me as a continuing student. I have this sneaking suspicion that they're going to screw this up yet another semester, which makes my job prospects crappy again. The administration of the university (not my department) is really dysfunctional and seems to work against the students rather than for them. You'd think that wouldn't be the case, but it certainly is.

Random Notes
I'm really looking forward to getting my desktop computer here. I've really missed it. It's been like living a temporary life where my real life is completely on hold, and that really shouldn't be the case. I'm here and now, which means this is my real life. It just seems like I'm holding space until the rest of my life catches up with me.

I have Christmas off, but only because it's my weekend day off. If it wasn't I'd probably have an additional day off, so I'll end up just getting my weekend day off instead. It would have been nice to have an extra day off, but the schedule didn't work out that way. The same thing is going to happen for New Year's Day, because it falls on the day exactly a week after Christmas. People in Korea really don't celebrate Christmas all that much because they really don't have the incentive to do so. It's become entirely commercial in both Korea and the United States, and the economy is horrid in Korea right now, so people aren't interested in spending money.

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Thursday, December 18, 2008

I think I'm getting better

Today is the first day where I've actually been able to read while wearing my glasses. For those who haven't been following my blog or facebook notes, I've been having trouble seeing with my glasses on because of a medical condition. The belief was that over time the condition would start getting better (hopefully) and that my sight would start getting better as well. That was weeks ago, and I was really concerned during this time. Today, however, I've actually been able to read normally unlike previous times in the recent past. There's still a bit of fuzziness, but that just means there's still more to adjust, but for the moment, let's just say it's so much nicer being able to read this way and not get a headache every fifteen minutes from not using my glasses.



Not much else going on. My thesis is still going through its Kafka-esque journey of approval from the Graduate Deparment. My God, I never thought ONE person could make it so difficult for a thesis to be accepted. Turns out she "lost" it last week by placing it on her file cabinet, or her desk, or wherever it was in her office. Kat had to point at it and say "there it is", and the women STILL tried to blame Kat for her own screw up. And this is the school that said I wasn't "qualified" to work there when I applied to be an employee while attendng UOP. Apparently, the word "qualified" has a lot of humorous definitions at University of the Pacific.



So, I am assuming I graduate this month. Who knows? They'll probably do something else really stupid. Everything else up until now has been a nightmare with this process. Why are they doing this? It's not like I was an enemy of UOP or the Graduate School at any time? Everyone else seems to be doing just fine with the process. Is it because I'm not physically there and unable to micromanage the process, so they figure I'm easy pickens for screwing with for no reason whatsoever? I don't really understand this.



As for here, my boss is having me create something a little different than I am here for; he wants me to create a debate teacher's program, so that we can train English instructors, specifically the Korean ones, to teach debate as well as English. After my initial uneasiness with the project, I'm actually developing the plan forward. I briefed two of the teachers on Wednesday, and while I can see them being a bit apprehensive (they have zero debate experience whatsoever), I kept trying to reassure them that this would not be a problem, and that with some work, they can actually do pretty well with this. What I don't think they realize (or maybe they do) is that the completion of this project will make them a lot more employable in South Korea, because there are a few schools that do the English/Debate thing here. It's really hard to find qualified people to do it, because a rational debate teacher isn't going to want to go and ALSO teach English for three days of the week. Yeah, I guess I'm really not always the most rational person.



That's about it. Wanted to share some slightly better news than usual. Been doing a lot of complaining lately, although I had a good reason to be doing so. They don't really share any of the same holidays with the US here, so what we do get off is Christmas and New Year's. Unfortunately, both of those days fall on a Thursday, which is my normal day off, so that means they won't be anything special for me when it comes to work. They don't give compensation days or anything like that. I'll just have the normal days off, and have to console myself with the fact that at least I'm not having to work on those days as well. Being in a different country can be a bit frustrating sometimes.



I weighed myself yesterday, and I'm at 147 pounds, which is somewhat near (or at) my ideal weight. My clothes don't fit anymore, and that's a problem because everything I have to wear is many inches too big. I really don't have the money to go out and buy new sets of clothing. This means tightening my belt, which is also a bit of a problem because I've run out of notches to tighten up with, so I either have to buy a new belt, or I'll have to do what I did when I was poor: create a new hole in the belt. But can I really complain, however? I've lost a lot of weight, and it's not some crash diet where the weight goes right back on once I stop being on the crash diet. This is the normal way I eat every day now, and my weight has melted off as a result. I'm kind of happy, foodwise, so there's really no reason to complain.



I sent my novel, The Ameriad, to Ricia Mainhardt's Literary Agency, and I'm still waiting for a response. She's having one of her readers take a look at it, so we'll see what happens. I've received mostly rejections from everyone to whom I've sent my other stuff. As soon as I finish the final edit on Rumors of War, I intend to start sending out query letters to agents for that one as well. It sucks that it takes so much effort to get published properly, but I'm hoping that once it happens, it will all have been worth it.



So, how am I occupying most of my free time? World of Warcraft. I figured that if I can't escape Korea and go to America, at least I can escape Korea and go to Azeroth (the land of World of Warcraft). I've been playing on the Horde these days with my hunter, and he's now 43rd level. I'm in a pretty decent guild on one of the Oceania servers (playing here because at least that way I'm closer to the same time zone as everyone else). Yeah, I know some people treat the game as some geek thing, and that's all right. But it does occupy a lot of free time these days, and believe me, it's been a lifesaver over the last few weeks, because things haven't really been all that great, and sometimes it's really nice to have something like that to take your mind off of real world things.



That's pretty much it for now. I'm at work right now, about to get ready for Writing and Composition classes with some middle school kids. One positive thing so far about being here is that I've found myself really liking the kids. They may get annoying at time, but that's because they're kids, and that's what they're supposed to do. But they like me, and I feel they respect me as well. I listen to the classrooms of other teachers, and the kids seem almost completely out of control. In my classes, they participate, and we get along without that loud, racuous noise I hear from the other classes. I'm not sure why it doesn't happen in my classes, but I'm not a strict teacher either. I do make them laugh a lot, and I think that has something to do with it. It also took weeks of working with the kids before they started to warm up to me; I have one of those strange senses of humor that takes time to get used to. One day, with one of my classes, it seemed like things were never going to get better (it was feeling like a bad class), so I just started talking about how squirrels are evil, carry machine guns, and one must always be on guard to warn if squirrels might attack. That, alone, did it. The kids have so much fun with this little joke, that sometimes they'll answer questions, using squirrels as the prompt to lead them to answer even more questions. The thing was: I wasn't planning to use this dumb joke as a starting pointi to anything, but it just worked. Another day, I talked about mind-controlling teddy bears, and it just worked great with another group of kids. It's partly because it's absurd, and kids often live in an absurd world where things don't always make sense. It creates a strange bond between the teacher and the students, when both can joke about the same thing, yet still manage to get the work done that is required. Anyway, I'm just pontificating about something I don't really understand anyway.

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Tuesday, December 16, 2008

The Status of Duane

I wish I had more to say, but I really don't. Nothing is going on in my life right now, other than I get up in the morning, do some random work around the apartment, and then I go to the school where I team little middle school kids a little bit about the English language. On the weekends, Saturday and Sunday, I hold debate classes where students learn about an issue, prepare a case, and then argue with each other, using the international debate format. Sometimes, I find myself impressed with their arguments; other times, it's like listening to two ships in the night, talking about two different issues and wondering why I'm listening to what they have to say.

As for my health, it's kind of on a "wait and see" basis. Things are not great, and they don't seem to be getting all that much better. Right now, the big problem is that I'm having vision problems (I can't read with my glasses on, and I get a headache without my glasses). I had this same problem a few months back when my potassium went nutso on me, but all tests have indicated that the same problem is not back, so it looks like it's a wait and see process to hope that things start to correct themselves.

I do really regret coming here, however. I feel like the protagonist in Kobe Abe's Woman in the Dunes, where a man becomes trapped in a society of people who live in the sand, and there is no way for him to escape, so he has to accept that he will always live in a sand house that is constantly collapsing on him, because that is what was chosen for him. I feel trapped that way, a lot, and as much as I try to compensate by making things more comfortable, I can never escape the fact that I live in a house of sand that no matter how much furniture and westernized conveniences I add, I'm still going to be living in a house of sand.

The frustrations are such simple things, too. Like my computer. I really miss my computer, because with that, I could wile away lots of time playing games, of which I have a massive collection (none of which are with me right now). My laptop computer here is being used as my main computer, and it just doesn't have the processing power to do the things I want to do, so it's like living with a manual typewriter and trying to use it to surf the web. Okay, it's not that bad, but the point still remains. My stuff is still back in the states, and it is taking forever to get any of it over here. To get some of my own stuff here would be such a boon, because at least then it would feel like a little bit of my own life is here, but none of it has come here so far, so I keep finding myself having to compensate by settling for less than what I desire.

And my graduation from University of the Pacific is supposed to be this month, but I have no way of feeling that out whatsoever. Kat has been making the changes to my thesis (the page changes, not content), but the graduate school is so dysfunctional that it would not surprise me if somehow I don't even graduate, but get swept under the rug because they really don't care. The woman who works at the front desk of the Graduate School serves as a barrier to education, and it's amazing that this woman even has a job sometimes. But she continues to do what she does (making it more difficult for people to graduate because...well, no one really understands why she does this because it doesn't serve any positive purpose whatsoever, for the students or for the university, or even for general prosperity).

I've started playing World of Warcraft again, mainly because it's the only thing my computer CAN handle, and it gives me a release from living in Korea. I don't even care to explore Korea these days because I'm just so frustrated with being here. Today, I went to Costco, which is about the most I've traveled in some time. I bought a bunch of stuff with which I hope to make my life more comfortable, like a few DVDS (half of season 1 of LOST and all of season 2). I'd rather have my own DVDs here, but again, I have very little of my stuff from back home, so I have to do what I can to add to my sanity here. I also bought a huge pack of pens because the pens you can buy in office supply stores here suck big time. I also bought another HUGE box of Honey Nut Cheerios because at least those I can eat for breakfast and not feel like I'm sticking a trout in my mouth first thing in the morning.

I have started to find books here at various bookstores, even though some of them can be massively expensive, meaning you have to really search each store and compare prices on books. An example is the new Ken Follett paperback, World Without End. At What The Book, a bookstore here in Itaewon with English titles, this book was being sold for 35,000 won (about $26), whereas Bandi & Luni in the Coex shopping mall was selling it for the list price of 12,820 won (nearly a third of the price). You find that with a lot of things here, so much that you really have to be careful with what you buy and where you buy it or you'll get massively screwed.

Haven't even given any thoughts to relationships here. I know some of my American friends would probably be surprised by this because it's not a secret that I have somewhat of a weakness for Asian women. But it doesn't seem to be happening this time, and I find myself really not interested. I think what has happened is that I have lost all patience with most of the women I deal with, and thus, I really don't want to get involved. My interests are pretty finicky in relationships, and I find that sometimes it's just not worth the effort trying to find someone. I think my chance to find someone ended some years back, and that I had a couple of really good prospects that I screwed up, so I believe that nature has finally just decided that I let the brass ring go by too many times, so I'm really not going to be finding anyone again. I have this really bad tendency to become involved with women who want to be friends with me, and that's about all I ever find anymore. I know most of that is my fault, because as most people point out to me, what I should just say is that I'm not interested in friendships with anyone new, and if they're not interested in anything further than that, then move on and seek out someone else.

My hope is that I will be able to find a job back in states, so I can go home and work there. Korea would have been fine for me about ten years ago, but at this age, it's really not doing that much for me. I get really frustrated with incompetence, and there's a lot of that at work. And when your management screws up and then feels the need to make YOU responsible for how they screwed up, it really gets irritating. One example was this last weekend. I haven't had an actual debate in two weeks (weird schedules were the cause) so I had no idea what my schedule actually was. So I kept asking the supervisor for a schedule. ("Okay, I give schedule tomorrow...." and of course, no schedule comes tomorrow) Then, I was given an interview schedule (they want me to interview students for the new debate program) where my first interview was at 1pm. Then I get a phone call at 10am asking me why I'm not at work already to coach a debate that I knew nothing about. Instead of "sorry, we should have told you", I get "You should know to be here, and get here now!" as a response. Then I get the supervisor claiming she "told" me, even though the only thing she "told" me was about the interview at 1pm. It doesn't help that NONE of them speak any English, nor that none of them understand anybody's Korean, including mine. That's the other problem with this country. The language. It's a garbage language, in case you didn't know that. It was written only recently in history, and so many words mean so many different things that if you ever listen to a phone conversation, you'd go nuts. It literally goes like this:

A: Yobaseyo. (Hi)
B: Yobaseyo. (Hi)
A: Papaseyo? (Are you busy?)
B: Huh? (What?)
A: Papaseyo? (Are you busy?)
B: Ah, Papa John's Pizza? (Ah, Papa John's Pizza?)
A: Aniyo, Papseyo? (No, are you busy?)
B: Ah, Aniyo, Peolo anpapeyo. (Ah, no I am not particularly busy)
A: Papa John's? (Papa John's?)
B: Aniyo, Peolo anpapayo. (No, I am not particular busy)
A: Mmm, Papa John's. (Mmm, let's eat at Papa John's)
B: Ne, Papa John's. Ne. (Yes, Papa John's, Yes)
A: Mmm. (Yummy sounds)
B: Anyoung hee, kashipseyo. (Goodbye to you leaving)
A: Ne, Anyoung hee, keshipseyo. (Goodbye to you staying)

Gotta love the language. No one ever gets anything done, but they all seem to end up at Papa John's Pizza.

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Sunday, November 23, 2008

The Outline for the Thesis I Wanted to Do....

My thesis:

Abstract
Okay, there was this big revolt in the Soviet Union. You know that place that became Russia? Well, it used to be the Soviet Union. And they were kind of communist. Well, they claimed they were communist, but they were more of a socialist republic without the socialism part (well, and the republic part, too, for that matter). So, I guess they were kind of like an aristocracy, except no one had any money, so they were like a poor aristocracy, and they had no real power either, so they were probably more like a bunch of thugs who would beat you up if you didn’t give them your milk money. We all remember those guys. Those were the same guys that stuffed you in the trash cans during your freshman year in high school, and they’d laugh as you tried to pull yourself out of the can, but some kid before you had thrown his tuna fish sandwich into the trash bin because he was sick, and now you’re covered in bad tuna, and well…wait, I was talking about the Soviet Union.

Definitions:
“the” – This word seems to show up a lot before other words. No one in history has ever figured out what it means.

“fashizzle” – doesn’t really mean anything, but uncool, white guys often use it to pretend they’re not uncool, white guys.

Research Questions

  1. So, what’s with that?
  2. What the hell is that?
  3. Does this make me look fat?
  4. Do you think it bites?

Hypotheses

  1. If I throw a rock at that really big guy who is working out in the gym with really heavy weights, I believe that my top speed at running will increase twenty percent higher than normal by the time he catches me.
  2. Che chingu sogehagesimnida. Ore-kanman-imnida. Anyung haseyo.
  3. Life is like a river.
  4. If you add one kilajoule of potential energy to a discharged atomic isotope that currently has negative momentum caused by electromagnetic displacement, an equal force of distraction progression (caused by chaotic disbursement) will equal 1/10th of the fragmentation of disabled housing processing.

Methodology
Start with a base of flour, add in a batch of uncooked rice, approximately 13 ounces, and then stir while frying at a medium boil. After 15 minutes, add paprika and then baste in a turkey baster. Let it sit for an hour and then serve with white wine.

Discussion
So, like, this chick and I are totally digging each other, and then she suddenly reveals that she’s been seeing this other guy, so I says to her: “Yo, babe, I don’t think this is going anywhere,” and she gets all haughty on me, talking about the whole “commitment thing, and I just know she’s going to bring up that I was dating Suzie that one time we broke up for fifteen days, and then she’s gonna….

Conclusions

1. Never poke a one eyed man with a stick. It’s just not a good idea no matter how much you think it might be.

2. Never start with number one if you don’t have a number two to follow it up with.

Yes, kids, you, too, can finish a master's degree. Just follow the directions I've given here.

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Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Way overdue for an update

I realize it has been over a month now since I last added an entry, so I figured I'd just kind of recap what's going on.

1. No real job so far on the horizon. I've been trying, and I have not been very successful. I keep ending up as the "second choice" of colleges, but never the first choice. San Francisco State went with one person over me. Casper College went with the other person over me. Pacific University in Oregon went with the other person over me. They often call me to tell me that they wished they could have chosen me, but in the end, they didn't choose me. My prospects are looking really dim these days. I almost got Hillsdale College, and I probably would have got it, but I had problems with my flight, so they ended up having to give it to one of the other people who actually showed up for the official interview in Michigan. I don't really know what to do at this point. I'm not finding any success, and it's almost August now.

2. Working temporarily. I'm working for EF, which is an English teaching school that works through the University of Phoenix. It is one of those jobs that lasts only a month, and by the end of this week, I'll be completely unemployed again. Before that, I was working a temporary month or so job with the county as an election trainer. That, too, ended, so little by little my little gigs are drying up.

3. Overseas might be my only hope. I'm currently looking into working in South Korea, teaching English or debate. We'll see how that turns out.

4. My computer stopped working last week. Apparently, my power supply decided to stop working, or blew itself out. I had to take my computer to a shop to actually get it repaired. To be honest, even though I've been a computer technician before, I misdiagnosed my own computer and didn't realize it was something as simple as a bad power supply. So, I replaced that and added another gig of ram to my computer (bringing it up to 3 gigs of ram). Cost me $200 that I didn't really have, but what can I say?

5. My writing hasn't been going very well lately. I am at one of those stages in my writing where I have a novel formulating in my head, but it's not ready to come out yet. This happens to me a lot with my novels. Unfortunately, it leaves me wanting to write, but not feeling comfortable enough to write yet. I have a working title of this next project that seems to be around the corner, entitled: She Talks to Penguins. Believe it or not, it's actually a very serious project, and something a bit different from what I've tried to tackle in the past. Considering I've tackled adventure, suspense, science fiction, fantasy, epic comedy and romance, this is more of a slice of life kind of novel, which I never actually imagined I would be writing. I guess it is more consistent with some of my recent work, which included my short story "Simple Girl" that took second place from the Stockton Arts Commission this summer; for the record, my romance story, "Buried Memories," took first place from the Stockton Arts Commission the year before. "Simple Girl" was more of a moralistic type of story about a stereotyped girl who everyone seems to ridicule behind her back, but in the end she was really the wisest character in the story.

6. Relationships. None. That's never really changed. I had a conversation with Kat yesterday when we went out for a beer at BJ's, and we talked about that same subject. I guess I don't really know what it is I'm looking for these days. In the past, I was involved with some pretty strange women, dating anything from a crazy girl from Hong Kong who desired to kill everyone in the human race, fondly referring to me in a loving manner as "the last victim"; a professional dominatrix who didn't understand why men found her so intimidating; a seriously toxic semi-supermodel who used to leave the table after we eat to vomit up everything she just chowed down; several best friends with whom I may have or may not have been actually dating at the time (just couldn't figure it out and blatantly asking just gave me vague replies); a couple of 18-20 year olds, who put out airs that they were much more mature for their age until we started dating and then suddenly they were really 18-20 year olds in maturity as well; and well, a couple of others that were great but just weren't either looking for me, or not there when I was finally looking for them.

So, we somewhat concluded, or at least I did, that I'm looking for someone intelligent who can stimulate me intellectually. I don't find myself looking for the same thing other men are looking for. Sure, an attractive woman is great, and I'll spend an eternity looking at a beautiful woman (Shania Twain, I'm looking at you right now...), but there has to be more to it than that. And that's so hard to find because I think too many women are socially stigmatized by what other men are seeking that they're all convinced that most men are interested in them only for sex. And that bad disposition gets reinforced by bad choices they make in trying to find that guy who is "just like you but not you".

There have been a couple of women who have come along but they're just not interested in me, or in a relationship at the moment. Some of them have been perfect for me, and I felt I would be perfect for them. But those relationships have remained strictly friendships because they're seeking someone else, even though I sometimes suspect that they don't know what they're seeking either. What's funny is that no matter where I go, and I do go numerous places in my life, I always end up with at least one or two really close female friends who are never interested in anything beyond friendship. And my jury is still out as to whether or not that is a good or a bad thing.

7. The Shoulder. It still hurts. I can barely move my arm still, and the pain has actually spread to my right shoulder as well, so I have little full mobility, and it hurts when I try to stretch my arms behind my back, like when I try to put a belt on my pants. With that said, the pain has become lessened somewhat, and I do feel that I've been able to get a bit more sleep at night than I use to. I am heading in for a surgery consultation this afternoon, and then in August I'll actually have the surgery itself, where they stretch the shoulder into a position and then supposedly, that "fixes" the problem of "frozen shoulder". I'm hoping so because it's been over a year, and this situation has really sucked a lot.

8. Tabula Rasa. It means "clean slate" but it's also the name of the game I've been playing religiously with the spare time that I have every day. It's an online game, like World of Warcraft, but it's so much not like World of Warcraft. And that's what I was seeking: Something NOT World of Warcraft. The premise is that the Earth has been conquered by an alien race called the Thrax (or the Bane), and we've regrouped on other planets where we're trying to win back our freedom from Bane oppression. It's so much different than other games I've played, and it actually feels like you accomplish something when you play. Plus, the important thing for me, is that it has a very rich story interwoven into the fabric of the game. That's rare. The game was designed by the creator of Ultima (and Ultima Online), Richard Garriott. Great game. I highly recommend it.

9. The Thesis. My second draft was given to Marlin almost two weeks ago. I haven't heard back on it. It's 115 pages approximately, so I can see why it would take some time to read through and correct it. I'm hoping there's not much more to do, because I really want this over and done with. I've been in school way too long. Plus, I need the stupid degree so I can show that I have something in return for the two years I spent here at the University of the Pacific.

That's pretty much it for now. Wish I had more to add, but that's a mouthful alone.

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Friday, June 13, 2008

Pushing forward on the thesis

The thesis is taking a lot work, but I'm pushing forward with it. Today, I finished the first draft of my biography section, which was kind of difficult because my biographies require 9 different people, and for some of them there is very little information available.

My next step is to begin the analysis of the artifacts (texts) themselves. It's very time consuming, and it really leaves me exhausted at the end of each day. I've been checking out a study room in the library every day and just working nonstop there. I've discovered the library gets FREAKING COLD, so I've actually had to start bringing a jacket to wear while I'm in the library. Yes, it's roasting outside, yet I need a jacket in order to study in the library. I mean, air conditioning is nice, but an ice box is really not necessary.

A few days ago I read Steve Martin's Born Standing Up. I've always been a fan of Steve Martin, and I was a fan back when he was actually doing stand up, before he did his first movie, The Jerk. I was surprised at how good a book this really was. You think you know a lot about someone, and then you read his memoir, and you find yourself completely surprised. He's a great writer, and he has a great sense of humor, obviously, but the story of his rise and then retirement from stand up was just downright amazing. I am so glad I read this book.

I'm still getting somewhat paranoid about the fall because I don't have any job lined up, and I'm not anticipating anything showing up either. Part of the problem, I believe, is that my MA degree does not get awarded until August, and I get the impression that that makes HR departments think "he doesn't have the required degree". But then I've also applied for jobs in political science, for which I already do have the degree, and I've received nothing but paper thin letters of "thanks but no thanks". A couple of the others, like Bakersfield College, never even got back to me after stating they had the whole application. It's really frustrating. I'm not sure what to do as I get closer to the fall. I am running out of money, and I don't see anything getting better. I've applied to other jobs, like city jobs and all that, but for some reason I can't get past an HR department. I applied to a job in Michigan (for the company where I was before), but I've had zero response from there, even though I am completely what they could use for the position.

It becomes really depressing. My shoulder has also been getting worse and worse every night. It makes it really difficult to sleep, and sometimes my other shoulder tries to compensate for the bad shoulder, and by the middle of the night that shoulder is hurting, too, so there's not a single side I can sleep on without throbbing pain. I'm not sure how much longer I can continue living like this. I contacted Kaiser, and they're setting up an August date for surgery, but I honestly don't think I'll make it that long.

Well, that's about it. I came up with an idea for a screenplay I want to write one day when I get some free time to do just that. The idea keeps growing bigger and bigger in my head, even though I suspect it may be one of those projects that lasts longer than I will.

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Monday, June 02, 2008

Indiana Jones and the Temple of Obscene Profits

I saw the new Indiana Jones movie, and let's just say that it wasn't the greatest movie I've ever seen. I'd place it #3 or 4 out of the four Indiana Jones movies (with 1 being the best, and 3 being second best). There were just so many continuity problems with the movie that I was starting to get frustrated with it.

Now, this movie is put out by two of the most dedicated men in movies (Lucas and Spielberg), so I was seriously surprised at some of the blatant problems in both the movie and the script. Some of the banter between characters was extremely contrived to the point of absurdity. There was one scene where Indiana and Co. are in a military vehicle CHASING after the evil Nazi woman (okay, she was really a Soviet Natasha secret agent, but she was played as a typical Nazi), with Indie saying something like "Catch her!" The camera then switches perspective, and now the evil Nazi woman is BEHIND them trying to catch up to them.

Some of the plot twists were so obvious that I wondered if they were supposed to be tricks that they were going to cleverly turn on us, but no, they weren't. They were just badly scripted plot points. (spoiler alert----> Hey, Indie, if a woman you haven't seen for twenty years has a twenty year old kid who is as free-spirited as you are, perhaps you should think a little bit about the origins of that kid, especially when his "father" is mentioned as someone REALLY ambiguous).

There was one throw-away line that I think was put into the movie for Lucas/Harrison Ford fans where Indiana says: "I got a bad feeling about this." Kind of takes ya back to the good ole' days of Hans Solo when he was coasting towards that moon ("that's no moon").

There was some good old fashioned beat em up action in the movie, which should always be expected from an Indiana Jones movie. There were a couple of references to the practically unwatched television series about Indiana Jones that someone not having watched that series would have caused a question of "when did Indiana Jones fight with Pancho Villa?" That was sometimes a problem with the movie. It expected you to have more knowledge of the insider stuff, yet the asides to those insider moments went so fast that you ended up having to think about it while other things were happening, and you'd miss something else.

It was good seeing Karen Allen again. She's still as cute and bubbly as she was in the original Raiders of the Lost Ark. They also showed a picture of Indie's dad, Sean Connery, which made me wonder if Sir Sean got any actual money for having his picture in the movie, even though he, himself, didn't appear.

Two final comments:
1. This movie reminds me that we've pretty much run out of bad guys in movies these days. Nazis are overdone and too far removed from our reality. Terrorists are too present in today's reality that it makes it hard to use them. There is really no evil country that we have to present as the enemy, because even if there is one out there, we still want to sell tickets to people in that country, and you can't market a movie to Chinese people if the big bad enemy is China.
2. University of the Pacific shows up in the movie a few times. You can tell whenever you see Burns Tower, which is supposed to give people the idea that Indiana Jones teaches in some east coast Ivory Tower university. In reality, Burns Tower is in Stockton, California. I don't think they want to give the impression that Indiana Jones is teaching archaeology in the street crime capital of California.

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Sunday, May 25, 2008

The FOT paper accepted at NCA

My paper I wrote with Kat, "The Friendship Over Time (FOT) Model: A paradigmatic shift into a new theory of cooperation" was accepted at the National Communication Association convention in November. I used a mathematical matrix process to develop an additive model that shows how international relations can be grown over generational contact between hostile nations. I kind of thought they'd turn it down because it doesn't use the same old methods of negotiations that everyone else seems to like. I'll be on a panel with an admiral and several other professors from Harvard and Stanford.

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Thursday, April 17, 2008

A new batch of query letters sent out

After finishing my thesis proposal, I decided to devote today to sending out my next batch of query letters to agents for The Ameriad and Absent Without Leave, two of my novels. It's always so much work getting these things together, but after a few hours of mundane work, it's all done and ready to send off in the mail.

Figure I'm going to have to start focusing on writing the thesis now. Fortunately, I already have a pretty good idea of what I need to do in order to complete that.

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Friday, February 15, 2008

Paper accepted for Gender and Science conference

A paper written with Kat has been accepted for the Gender and Science conference. Our paper, Seen But Not Heard: An Analysis of Failed Gender Expectations Observed During the August 1991 Soviet Coup has been accepted. The conference is at the end of March. The paper uses Burke's identity theory to explain how the Soviet leadership was taken off guard by a female reporter during their press conference on the evening of the coup.

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Tuesday, January 29, 2008

Comprehensives Oral Defense Scheduled for Next Week

On Tuesday of next week I have the oral defense of my comprehensive exams. Unlike at Western Michigan University, there's no actual indication of how well I did on the written part of the exam, so it appears I have to go in cold, having no idea if what I wrote was good or gibberish. I usually don't operate too well that way. I'm probably one of the more paranoid people when it comes to my own capabilities, constantly thinking I'm never doing enough. Unfortunately, that's one of those things I've never been able to talk myself out of.

So, that's about it for now. Got a ton of laundry to do.

Also, two agents have asked to see two of my novels: "Loser" (my science fiction futuristic, political novel) and "The Teddy Bear Conspiracy" (one of my rare espionage/thriller novels involving the drug trade). So, I'll get those ready and send them out tomorrow. I'm presently in the process of completing two plays I've been writing. One is called "The Corruption of Justice Girl", which is a tongue in cheek about a narcissistic superhero who is captured by his arch nemesis Injustice Vamp, who used to be his sidekick, Justice Girl. The other is a really complex humorous play, involving a lesbian couple and an immaculate birth. Anyhoo.

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Monday, January 21, 2008

Learning to walk again

About a week ago, I started going on two mile walks. Nothing big, but considering the fact that I was doing absolutely no exercising at all, it's a start. I'm now getting to the point where I can feel myself wanting to run while I'm fast walking, but I realize I'm just not ready for that yet, and if I start out early I'll just end up slowing up my progress.

Also started to change my eating habits. Going out to eat for breakfast every morning is just way too expensive and way too many calories. Staying home, it's about a fourth of the price (eating food at home) and about 1/3 of the calories, if not even less than that.

I really wish I could get into an actual work out routine again, but this shoulder makes it impossible. It even hurts when I'm walking, so it's just one of those things that I wish would fix itself so I could work on getting myself in better shape.

My comprehensive exams start tomorrow sometime (I have no idea when, actually), so I'm a bit stressed out over that. My car also started showing the "Check Engine Soon" light, which means I'm somewhat screwed with my car that I still can't register because the State of California is dysfunctional when it comes to the DMV (although it sometimes feels like the DMZ when I go there). So, I'm really not sure what I'm going to do. It's pretty far to walk (about 3 miles) which wouldn't be so bad if it wasn't raining and that I always end up walking home at 10pm at night. In the area where I live, that's guaranteed to get me killed, GUARANTEED.

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Thursday, January 17, 2008

New semester for teaching

I am teaching public speaking this semester, and as I was updating my CV, I just realized that this is my 19th course I've taught.

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Monday, January 14, 2008

The new semester is afoot

The new semester started today. I picked up my teaching folder from school; my first discussion section is tomorrow at 7pm. This makes my schedule somewhat interesting.

M (free)
T 6-Coaching, 7-Teach
W 6-Coaching
R 7-Teach

I have no classes I have to take this semester, which means that if I can find an actual job, I will. I've already put out a bunch of applications, and I hope something comes through quickly.

This is my last semester of school. I'm not going to continue on after this, although I might have to use part of the summer to finish off the defense of the thesis, but I can live with that. So, I need to find real work.

I sent one of my plays (Southern Hospitality) out to Brooklyn Publishers last week. Later this week, when I have time, I will be sending out more query letters for my novels. I have to keep trying.

My comprehensive exams are next week starting on Tuesday. Then next weekend I'll be attending my first tournament for the semester. There is going to be a lot of tournaments this semester.

As for relationships and all that, nothing really happening. There are little hits here and there, but nothing serious or anything that's going to be long term. Unfortunately, the women of whom I am most interested really haven't been all that interested in me, other than as friends.

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Tuesday, January 01, 2008

Happy New Year to everyone

Well, the year 2008 is upon us. Rejoice. Or complain. Or do laundry. Whatever.

I received my grades for last semester. In both Documentary Film in Political Communication and Mass Communication I received A's. So, it was a good semester for grades. Next semester I'm mainly doing thesis hours and a research hour on top of teaching and coaching.

I sent out my novel query letters last week, so I should start receiving replies in the next week or so. I've been actively organizing notes for my next novel, and right now it's a toss up between a rewrite of To Touch the Unicorn or The Deck Const, or I may start a brand new novel, a horror story called Even a Dream Has Nightmares.

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Thursday, December 20, 2007

Appealing to all can mean losing them all

This idea can easily be used in politics, and I'm sure if someone was intuitive enough that person could take what I say and cross apply it to the election manifestations that are going on right now. But I'm going to keep it simple, based one something that's been bothering me for awhile from a very, somewhat, innocent source.

If you've ever gone to school, and I hope we all have at one point or another, you've probably come across Classmates.com, which purports to be a resource to get people back in contact with their school mates from previous institutions. It's expanded a bit, and it's trying to appeal to be a social networking site for a lot more than schools, but whatever. Unfortunately for Classmates.com, it is coming up against both Facebook and Myspace, which both are free, and while Classmates charges money for the more useful services it offers (like actually being able to contact someone you want to contact), it has zero chance whatsoever of making people think it is in any way superior to either Myspace or Facebook.

And why is this? Well, one thing that Classmates USED to do well was it would divide up schools by the years you attended them, and then whenever someone else showed up on the site from that school, it would notify you. Well, realizing that the chances are slimmer rather than normal that someone is going to find Classmates.com on a regular basis, so you'd get lots of notices of people in your networks signing on, and showing the system is worthy of your dollars, they decided some years back to lump years together. So, I graduated from Moorpark High School some years ago. Let's just say the date was 1992 (which it was not). I used to get notices about other people from Moorpark who signed up, mainly if they were from the class of 1992. Well, Classmates, trying to make it look like the system is much more used than it really is decided that they'd do something stupid, like lump 1992 into 1990-1996, or something like that. So, now whenever someone from those years signs up, they send me an irrelevant message that doesn't concern me in any way whatsoever. I don't care if someone signed up who was from the class of 1996, but I have to sign on to find out that someone I don't know, or would have ever known, is the person they're notifying me about. So I just stopped using Classmates.com.

But they still send me notices, and I think that's just stupid. They made their own service so useless yet think somehow they've made it more relevant.

Which brings me to Facebook. I hate when someone changes something that already works. One thing I liked about Facebook is that when I clicked "Friends" it would show me all of my friends in detail. Now, it shows me JUST the ones who have updated their profiles. I don't care who updated his or her profile. I can find that out if I want. Now, without multiple clicks, I can't get that full detail version anymore. Well, maybe I can, but they didn't make it intuitively obvious.

So, Facebook, trying to appeal to even more people with a new "feature" have dumbed it down to an annoying presentation. So now I don't even sign onto Facebook unless I'm really, really bored, or someone like my friend Kat has signed on and tells me she sent me a message.

Myspace has gotten so annoying over the last few months, I almost feel like canceling the account. I receive invites over and over again from people trying to spam their sex sites. I deny each and every one of them, but it requires me to sign onto my Myspace account just to find out Tina is not the Tina I knew from high school, but some 19 year old slut who wants to sell me pictures of her going at it with a vibrator. When are these people going to realize that most of us just aren't interested in this trash? If someone's paying for this stuff, I guess I understand how they spam everyone hoping for success, but I can't believe anyone is that stupid to pay for that kind of crap. And if it WAS the Tina I knew it high school, I'd feel even worse, kind of like the feeling you'd get going to a strip club and seeing a dancer who turns out to be a close friend you lost contact with because she was having trouble paying bills and had to "take another job to pay her bills". Yeah, I guess one can say something about going to a strip club in the first place, but there was a time back when I was going to San Francisco State where I was dating a woman who worked at one of the very popular strip clubs in San Francisco, so I used to pick her up at work, and you'd be surprised how many women from school I used to run into who were "paying their way through college". It's kind of sad, actually, but that's not the point of today's memo.

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Tuesday, December 18, 2007

Semester is officially over

My mass comm class gave us a final exam we were to complete at home (he emailed us at 8am and it was due at 5pm today). I'm done. I sent off my completed exam by 2:30pm.

My final paper for my documentary film as political communication class was finished yesterday, even though it is due Thursday.

So, I'm officially done. Granted, I have to study for my comps, which happen when I get back from break in January. But I'm done for now.

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Tuesday, November 13, 2007

Finally a reprieve

Debate had been going for about 4 weeks in a row without any rest, and now I finally have a few weeks where I can finally breathe in and try to catch up with my normal life again. The last two days have been really nice, although somewhat surreal as I'm not used to moving at full speed and getting nothing done.

The Internet is up and running at the new house finally. This is my first blog entry from the new place. In the next few days I'll probably transport my main computer over. Right now it's still at the old place.

I have a meeting later this week to talk about the near future for my comprehensive examinations and my thesis proposal. The rhet crit part of my comps will cover Burke and Black, which I somewhat expected, so that's not a problem. There will probably be two more questions on communication education and documentary work in political communication as well.

I went to a group therapy thing yesterday and it was really a complete waste of time, unfortunately. It was a group of people who have trouble speaking up for themselves, and it really wasn't the group I really should have been in. Unfortunately, the depression group meets on one of the days of my hectic schedule, so I've been unable to sign up for that class. I'm probably going to drop the group therapy class I started Monday because I felt really stupid being there as none of the problem being discussed were anything close to what I need work on.

My shoulder's been really killing me lately, mainly because nonstop tournaments have made it difficult for me to work on the exercises my physical therapist wants me to do twice a day. I've worked on them twice today, and it hurts A LOT, but I'm hoping it will help in the long run and lead to this pain lessening some. It's really hard to sleep at night.

Last week, I forgot to mention that Kat and I saw the movie Dan in Real Life, and I'll have to admit that this is one movie I definitely identified with. Kind of sad actually, but at the same time it was a really good romantic movie. I really enjoyed seeing it as it had been a very long time since I've even seen a movie in a theater.

That's pretty much it for an update. Nothing special going on in my life at the moment. I've been getting a really antsy feeling lately, which tells me it's probably going to be time for my next novel to start being written. I did start writing a new play called, The Corruption of Justice Girl, a tongue in cheek superhero story that serves as a metaphor for the us versus them dichotomy in much of American political rhetoric. Recently, I've really gotten into Charles Bukowski's poetry. I'm not sure why, but it's hitting me really hard these days, and I wasn't much of a poetry reader in the past.

Current list of future papers to be written:
1. Gender in computer game lengths with Mariela
2. My synthesis of strategic versus tactical international relations with Kat
3. Narrative vs. Counternarrative (the 1991 August Coup) which I sent to ICA
4. My thesis, which is also on the 1991 August Coup tracing agit-trains to individual dissemination of messages.
5. A paper on the usage of Pastiche involving hip hop in iconic documentaries.

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Thursday, October 18, 2007

Gone for a few days

I'll be coaching at a debate tournament in San Diego this weekend, so I'll be gone at least until Monday.

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Thursday, September 13, 2007

Another academic publication

I found out today that my article (with Dr. Dong and Mark), The Impact of Emotional Intelligence, Self-Concepts on Romantic Communication Over Myspace, has been accepted for publication. That will sure make the Vita look better.

I'm quite possibly going to be working on a rhetorical criticism on dissemination of messages with Dr. Bates (it was a logical progression of a paper I was working on last year). At the same time, I've approached a colleague in the grad program to assist me on a synthesis paper (of 4 theories: Two game theoretic processes, one interpersonal communication concept, and my own personal strategic/tactical process application). I chose her because I think she has the philosophical foundation I need to turn this idea into a viable synthesis/research question for future study. The personal theory I generated is the harder one to develop, but she gave me some ideas for how we could work this into the literature review (as there is no literature on this as my idea is completely alien and original) by focusing on historical events rather than previous scholarly linkages. Anyway, I think I made a wise choice in collaborating with her.

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Sunday, May 06, 2007

Completing projects

I just finished my rhetorical criticism paper, 72 Hours of Rhetoric: Narratives and Counter-Narratives During the August 1991 Soviet Coup. It clocked in at 42 pages, and let's just say that I'm so glad it's finally finished. This is one of those projects where I put in the extra work I intended to do, and I'm pretty happy with the results. It also contributes a bit to the discipline in a direction I hadn't intended to take, specifically on my second research question of how dissemination of a message can affect the message itself.

This leaves my final exam for my Communication in Learning Settings course, which is due on Wednesday, at the same time that my final grades are due for my class I teach.

I'm still needing to find a job, and I just looked at my bank account balance, and well, I need a job.

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Monday, April 30, 2007

Busy with school stuff

It's amazing how the time flies when you're just plain ole' busy. The end of the semester is around the corner, and I'm finding myself just trying to churn out everything that is due. Some of the assignments I've had due this semester seem somewhat irrelevant, but they're a requirement of the degree, so there's that.

Rewriting my paper for Rhetorical Criticism has been a lot of work. It's been a huge monumental task just changing it from APA style to Chicago Manual of Style. I've figured out my mechanism for analyzing the speech artifact for the counter-narrative, but just getting a moment to wrap my head around it is difficult. It doesn't help that I have this stupid stress about how I'm going to get through summer, but there's that, and there's not much I can do about that.

R. and I had a conversation at my place the other night. It was constructive. We haven't really had a chance to see each other that much, so we're taking a break for a bit and then going to see if there's anything to continue in a month or so.

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